Life from my prospective....

Don’t let anyone stop you…

ryukkie — Fri, 31 Oct 2008 01:07:27 +0000

No matter who you are voting for, don’t let anyone stop you from your right to vote.

Song of the Week. Incubus – Rogues

ryukkie — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 04:03:44 +0000

Incubus this week. Enjoy.

I’m keeping an eye on the future, an eye on the past
and the present in my pocket just in case I need a door
to a brave new world where all solutions end up in my head
buried to my neck in sand
enough, enough bowing down to disillusion
hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
the ripple effect is too good not to mention
if you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention
it’s too good
it’s too good not to have an effect

I’m keeping an eye on the pulse, an ear to the track
and penance in a locket, drop it from the highest floor
when it hits ground I watch it smash to pieces
songs of liberation echo from the dust, the dust
enough bowing down to disillusion
hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
the ripple effect is too good not to mention
if you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention
it’s too good
it’s too good not to have an effect

enough, enough, enough, enough, enough
enough, enough, enough, enough
enough bowing down to disillusion
hats off and applause to rogues and revolution
the ripple effect is too good not to mention
if you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention
it’s too good
it’s too good
it’s too good…yeah.

My path of faith…

ryukkie — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 05:21:00 +0000

So in light of the recent election I have decided not to write a blog about it. That’s all people talk about over and over and over again. I personally am sick of it. I’ve pretty much stopped watching the news and have spent my time read books and watching anime. I am going to talk a little bit about me. Mainly my religious beliefs. Now, I was raised Christian. My whole family on both sides are Christians(with the exception of my cousin who is Muslim). I went to church on Sundays, Christmas, Easter, and was pretty much a model child. Then I turned 12. I started doubting my faith very young. The more I went to church, the less I believed what I was being taught. I cut myself off from religion for about 2 years. I felt something was missing, so I tried Christianity again. I came up with the same feelings as I did 2 years before. So I did what my Sunday school teachers taught me, I prayed and prayed and prayed some more. I got nothing. I still felt like Christianity wasn’t the right fit, but I knew that I wanted religion in my life. So I started to look online a bit. I couldn’t find anything that really fit. After 1 year of searching all the major religions I felt as lost as ever. Ironically enough Seventeen Magazine opened the door to my path of becoming Pagan. They had an article about a girl that was Wiccan. I had never heard anything about it so I started to look it up. The more I read, the more the pieces seemed to fit. And after researching and reading all the books I could find in the library, I decided to make this my religion. I followed all the guidelines for Wicca for 2 more years, but came to realize that it wasn’t really quite me. I did believe some things but not all of it. So I called myself Pagan and started down my own path. My family of course isn’t too happy about my religious choice, for they feel the need to “save me” every time I visit. No matter how many times I tell them I’m not doing anything evil, the more they try. I’ve pretty much given up trying to defend it. There is no point arguing with those who refuse to see the other side. I hold no ill-will towards them. I really just wish they would see that I’m at peace and I’m happy. If I’m wrong and I burn for it, so be it. No one knows who’s right or who’s wrong. No one knows what happens when you die, and those who do can’t tell us.

Song of the Week. LOVEHOLIC – Shinkirou

ryukkie — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 01:05:51 +0000

The song is in Korean, but I’ll give the original and English translation. Enjoy!

Korean:

Kkum sok iu pi mul teul eun mal hae
Ma ju chil seul pheum teul eul
Yong seo leul ku ha lyeo hal
A peun ne mo seup to nae sa to
Ji chin teutta mul eo jin nun pi
Teo neum pa la ji anh a
Pi littha ke sum a teun pyeong teun sok i never know
Tol i kil su to eops eul kkum
Pa lae jin na iu ki eok teul
A pheum to mu tyeo jyeo peo lin kkae jin shim jang
Tha peo lin na iu yeong hon eun eun han nat sin (g)eo jin jae duh mi
Sang cheo ka teuk chan nun mul ha

So tell me tell me the reason why
How can you do this to me
You break my heart and you make me cry

Kkeut i eopp neun ma ji mak tal pi
Jil cheok han pyeon myeong teul lo
Heun jeok eops i sa la jin
Neol phum eun tta seu ham you never know
Kkeut i eopp neun a pheum sok e
Nam kyeo jin neu eun hu hie to
Iu mi eops i sa la jyeo kal sa lang iu kko

So tell me tell me the reason why
How can you do this to me
You break my heart and you make me cry

English:

The secrets in my dreams tell me
About the sorrows that I’ll come across
I must yearn for mercy
Your pained appearance and my greeting
A gaze that was shut as if tired
I don’t wish for anything more than these
The sickened promise is stinking and hidden; I never knew…

A dream that I can’t recover
My memories grew dim
My pains became dull and my heart cracked
My burnt out soul is simply a cooled mountain of ash
My tears are filled with pain, ha…

So tell me… tell me… the reason why…
How can you do this to me…
You break my heart…
And you make me cry…

In the expressionless, final moonlight
Covered in muddied excuses
The warmth that embraced you
Vanished without a trace; You’ll never know…

Within the endless pain
There’s the belated regret that was left behind
And the flowers of love that disappear meaninglessly…

So tell me… tell me… the reason why…
How can you do this to me…
You break my heart…
And you make me cry…

Coldplay’s 2nd version of Viva La Vida Video

ryukkie — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 20:09:11 +0000

Its not the song of the week or anything, I just thought this was a cute video. I love Coldplay.

I’m sure everyone’s seen it by now, but oh well.

Song of the Week. Our Lady Peace – Will the Future Blame Us

ryukkie — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 19:39:07 +0000

One of my favorite bands.

Are you disappointed?
And have we destroyed it I
But I’ve been stumbling down this long and winding road
And these times are changing
And it’s complicated I
Well I don’t wanna know

And I ….
Don’t ask why anymore
And I …
Don’t ask why anymore, anymore

And is it getting better?
Can we live forever I
And I’m not sure what the hell we’re fighting for
And does the money make us?
And will the future blame us I
Oh I don’t wanna know

And I …
Don’t ask why anymore
And I …
Don’t ask why anymore, anymore

When you’re tired and alone
And you feel like letting go
Come home

When you can’t take anymore
When you’re beat up and ignored
Come home

The sun’s inside a hole
The faster you don’t know
A long, long way from home
There are things you need to know
The answers leave you cold
You’re a long, long way from home
And the summers coming back
And it brings a second chance
If you’re not part of this
Then I don’t wanna know …

And I …
Don’t ask why anymore
And I …
Don’t ask why anymore, anymore

When you’re tired and alone
And you feel like letting go
Come home
Oh when you can’t take anymore
When you’re beat up and ignored
Come home
I’m coming home

Random shit with no point.

ryukkie — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 07:00:28 +0000

Well, like I said before, my life is pretty fucking boring. I spent the day gaming and sleeping. I did go outside for a little bit, but all I did was pick up some paper in the yard and walked around the house. Nothing to do out here in my neighborhood. All my neighbors next to me are old, the one across the street is fucking crazy. I don’t get along with anyone my age. They are into gangster rap and hip hop. I like alternative and indie music. I’m a relatively quiet anime weirdo who reads history books and plays games most of the time. I’m playing bingo as I type this. Probably seems weird that a 22 year old girl likes bingo, but I think its fun. I never win though, I think Pogo rigged this game…or always gives me shitty cards. Recently got back into The Sims 2. I made a huge house with a ton of cool stuff in it…and I totally forgot to save it. I almost cried. Took me 2 hours to get that house perfect. That’s the number one rule in gaming, SAVE YOUR GAME! Not just gaming, life in general. I’ve typed out papers before, had the cat come and jump on the computer or the power went down and lost everything. Good thing about wordpress is that it automatically saves the entries as a draft. Well, that’s all I got. I’m gonna go play The World Ends With You. Later.

Song of the Week: Coldplay – Violet Hill

ryukkie — Tue, 30 Sep 2008 20:56:25 +0000

I can’t think of a song of the day, every damn day so once a week works. At least for now. Enjoy!

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below

When the future’s architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You’d better lie low

If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
And went out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in honor
When I’m dead and hit the ground
A love back home unfolds

If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

I don’t want to be a soldier
With the captain of some sinking ship
With snow, far below

So if you love me
Why’d you let me go?

I took my love down to violet hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

So if you love me
Won’t you let me know?

If you love me,
Won’t you let me know?

No sympathy for the dead….

ryukkie — Fri, 26 Sep 2008 15:06:58 +0000

So, the other day some kid hung himself up the street. He was 17 I think. We heard someone outside screaming and crying. Mom was being nosy and I was paying it no mind. My mom thinks its sad, and she was telling me about how we should feel sorry for the kid. I personally think he’s a coward. I know what you’ll all say. “How can you say that? The kid was depressed and probably had a hard life.” I’m sure he might have, but the fact still remains that he decided ‘I can’t take it anymore, I’m going to be a coward and run away from my problems instead of trying to fix it…’ He chose to be a coward and kill himself. He chose to hurt his family, friends, and everyone else he left behind because he was too afraid to face his life. What about all those people that have had it worse and still find the strength to keep going? I’ll admit, when I was younger I thought about suicide. I hated my life and I hated myself, but nothing in my life justifies making my mom cry, unless I do something that makes her proud. What is there to gain from being with the gods and having to watch your mother have to bury one of her babies? What good reason is there in that? Like I said, that boy was a coward, and so is everyone else that kills themselves. There’s no honor in dying like that. There’s not closure for the living, and no hope for the dead. Just a bunch of sad people thing about what the coward would have been like as a man…if he had only manned up to the occasion.

BeliefNet Quiz

ryukkie — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 23:37:44 +0000

Yeah….so I’m bored and my life is pretty boring so I’m post my results from the belief-o-matic quiz on beliefnet.com. I’m pagan by the way. If you don’t like that or want to discuss it, let me know. Its been a long time since I’ve had a good debate.

1.	Neo-Pagan (100%)
2.	Mahayana Buddhism (80%)
3.	New Age (80%)
4.	Jainism (73%)
5.	Unitarian Universalism (72%)
6.	Reform Judaism (63%)
7.	Hinduism (62%)
8.	Liberal Quakers (62%)
9.	Theravada Buddhism (61%)
10.	Sikhism (61%)
11.	Bahá’í Faith (48%)
12.	New Thought (48%)
13.	Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (46%)
14.	Scientology (45%)
15.	Secular Humanism (44%)
16.	Orthodox Judaism (44%)
17.	Taoism (41%)
18.	Islam (35%)
19.	Orthodox Quaker (35%)
20.	Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (23%)
21.	Nontheist (23%)
22.	Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (15%)
23.	Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (13%)
24.	Eastern Orthodox (12%)
25.	Roman Catholic (12%)
26.	Seventh Day Adventist (12%)
27.	Jehovah’s Witness (9%)